i send my SOS to the world- this is my message in a bottle.

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Cryptic Venting

I am not a big fan of girls. Okay, okay, let me reword that. Sometimes, it's hard for me to get close to girls. I'm not particularly impressed by them, especially the really girly types, and ESPECIALLY the "I'm so cute" diminutive, cutesy types (which is probably why a majority of my friends are guys). I'm tiptoeing hard core around this because I suppose it would be very easy to be misunderstood. I love my girlfriends. They are smart, articulate, funny, unique, amazing women. They teach me so much. They listen to me cry and complain. They're the ones I can talk about breast size and periods, boys and clothes and pink clothes and the kind of jacket that flatters with what skirt. They're awesome.

But there are some girls. That. Fricking. Bug. The. Hell. Out. Of. Me.

ESPECIALLY the ones that are aforementioned, and ESPECIALLY the ones that do shit to mess with people. So I shall address them now:

I have nowhere else to vent this, so it shall go here.

You suck ass. I'm pissed off at you. You'll never know it, but I shoulda trusted my gut instinct about you, which was not to like you very much. But at this moment I'm not particularly pissed at anything you did to ME. It's worse almost- you hurt someone I really love and care about. And while this person doesn't see it the way I do, because matters of the heart are involved and I am SO ridiculously protective.... fuck you. You're cut off my list- you'll never progress past a surface friendship with me, and I know you're trying to be all friendly and whatnot, but you might as well save it for someone who gives a damn. You did piss me off before for something related- minor betrayal in your actions about something else regarding MY heart. And yes, I let you have it. A little bit of my temper flared out at you, and I'm glad more than ever that I let that happen, because it's only a small indicator of what you'll get if you hurt this person that I love. You lead people on...AHHH! I hate that. If you can't do anything about it...DON'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. You're digging yourself into this hole, and worse off I think you're being horribly irresponsible. You're playing with 4 people's hearts. It's really tangled. If you do anything to hurt ANY of these people I love, you won't even wanna remotely think of how quick I'll turn out and give you the rough side of my tongue that I try not to let out. I will bring it. Believe that.

My protective vibe is going up hardcore right now.

BITCH.

Ah. Someone hose me down.

1:35 a.m. - Monday, Dec. 06, 2004

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