i send my SOS to the world- this is my message in a bottle.

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Illumination and Irrelevancy


And so the transition continues. I finally stepped on campus for the very first time. I wandered with my roomie Chin, bought books and got excited for the semester. All the books for my classes look so interesting that I just wanna start reading them now. For even just my Sociology of Popular Culture course, the required reading was Hip Hop America, Homegirls in the Public Sphere, Zines: Notes from the underground and Cultural Theory and Popular Culture. I'm so excited!

Afterwards, we walked to the mall and I bought a beautiful soft lemon colored scarf. While I have never particularly ever worn yellow, I figure there is no time like the present to try something new, and the color is just so soft and sunny that it can't help but make me smile. I also picked up an application to work at Victoria's Secret, should I feel like I need to be employed and money runs low.

The better part of my last couple evenings has been just sitting around with two of my roomates, talking about everything. I'm realizing and sorting through a lot right now, and I think us being in the same boat is bringing a lot of things to light. I'm learning so much from their respective backgrounds, and they're making me think about things and situations that I hadn't considered before. I feel like I've been wearing this groove into me from all the past experiences I've had before, and I haven't been looking at things in a fresh light. And, with our last couple of talks, some things have really been illuminated for me.

It's kinda like my logical mind and my heart are at odds with one another right now. I know there is a choice that fits me- that is supposed to fit me. And yet, somehow in the light of my heart, becomes increasingly irrelevant.

We'll see.

2:47 a.m. - Tuesday, Jan. 25, 2005

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